I understand from experience what you are saying. I didn't like religion either until I accepted what God has done for me, and how he loves me, even beyond the grave. I stopped blaming God for all the bad things of this world and started to look for answers. I followed my heart and not my mind. I am a work in progress, but I do feel his love and presence. If God can love me enough to die for my sins, the least I could do was try to get to know why. I can tell you now, God is real, and his love for us has no boundaries. I also respect your beliefs, and hope you find a true and lasting peace, Brother.
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