whining and crying does not get you anywhere in Communications! Advice: go find a way (there always is) to buy a truck, tools you are missing (the ones you always expect someone to provide) and use all of your contacts from the past 31 years you have been in the business (which hopefully you were responsible enough to keep on record), and go find your own work! Many people do that, and so can you! Good Luck!
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